Byte me

Yakkety Yak

I’m all at sea
Where no one can bother me
Forgot my roots
If only for a day
Just me and my thoughts
Sailing far away

-Jamie Cullum, All at Sea

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Oh nazzzzzzz.........

She's quite the sailor herself..... ; )


And here's to my favourite person in all of Bank Negara =>


Thank you for keeping me company, & keeping me sane in the bank.
You're like a warm drink that seeps into my soul =)

Good luck for your upcoming sailing competition Naz!

so come and spend some time with me,
and we will spend it all at sea.
-@p-

Bloom

Yakkety Yak

Apparently, every girl has to have a lil' black dress in her wardrobe.

This afternoon, Dolly looked at me in shock... 'You DON"T have a lil' black dress??'
'Every girl should have a lil black dress!!'
'Errr.......'.says @pril =p
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I've got some facial flaws.

For one, my eyes aren't symmetrical. My right eye is slightly bigger than my left eye. And my left double eyelid is temperamental in a sense that it chooses to show itself to the world only sometimes. Its elusive, it punishes me whenever I don't get enough sleep.

Next is my ears! Its not that obvious, but my left ear is very prone to sticking out way more than how ears should normally stick out. The bones on my left ear are much softer, so its more 'bendy'. Now I wasn't just born like that, but my rubber-like left ear was a result of sleeping on my sides, with my ear folded when I was a baby. And now my ear keeps sticking out of my straight hair like a sore....err....'ear'? Lol.

I guess if I ever went under the knife (not that I'm planning too...ever!), I'd get that ear tucked in where it should be!

Those are the only two I'd single out particularly.
I guess for the rest of my face, I'm quite fine =)

After all, shouldn't we be happy with the way we look? I'm thankful I have a 2 functional eyes, 2 ears, a nose and a mouth. Without any of that, it'd be hard to live a productive life and thats what I'm thankful for.

I think the idea of 'beauty' is so screwed up in this world today. I think the world has gotten the meaning of 'beautiful' all wrong. We've overlooked the fact that appearances can be changed, and it is so easy to manipulate the way someone looks....but real beauty, lies within a person.

Pretty, beautiful, handsome, gorgeous.
Here today, gone tomorrow. What never was there in the first place can always be planted there.

Every girl on the planet earth has the potential to be beautiful. To be beautiful, all a girl needs is...

(you might wanna take this down...Lol)

1. A good hairstylist.
I told you...life is full of endless struggles, that is..until you find the perfect hairstylist =D

2. Friend fashionistas
Friends who take great pleasure in dressing you up and offer you undivided fashion advice. You know who you are ;)

3. Someone to do your eyebrows for you.
Very, VERY important to manage those 'caterpillars' above my eyes that I inherited from my mom. hehe.

I am blessed to have not one, but a few fashion guru's around. And I trust them completely! And God bless my hairstylist Eve, and there's this lovely girl in One Utama who does my eyebrows for me for 12bucks. Sweet = >

And there you have it. Anyone can look good.

August 2009

But like I said, true beauty lies beneath a person's skin. So no matter how hot you are, if your personality sucks, you've got ugly written all over you.
Beauty may be skin deep, but ugly goes right down to the bone.
.....................If you think I'm bragging & being so full of myself here, I beg you to read on.

I didn't always look alright, not up until recently. I had a terrible case of acne last year, and trust me, acne is not something you'd want to befall upon you.

This was me back in August last year


Up until now, my little box of treasures has been my boxful of 30 accutane tablets. Accutane is popular acne medication prescribed to unfortunate individuals (like me) with bad skin. Its usually a method of last resort, when nothing else seems to work, when facials, nor pimple cream can get rid of the zits that keep poppin' out one after the other.

My prescription for being ugly

If you said I'm on drugs you are quite right, this thing even has some renown side effects. One of them is depression (oh no wonder my love life is so crappy!) and the other is that I can't get pregnant while taking this medication (yeah, like THATS gonna be one of my problems. lol)

...as it got worse, Nov 08

I never dared post these photos up, for obvious reasons. Not without 'touching up' the photos first. Folks I guarantee you, that this is how bad I looked over a year ago.

The Accutane poster girl back in Aug 08

Back then I think if I got a a dollar for every zit I had on my face, to say I'd be a millionaire would be cliche but I'm pretty sure I'd get around a 100 bucks.

Acne is something where ...if you're unfortunate enough to get it, you'll wonder what you did in your previous life to actually deserve it.

Its not a nice experience to have people coming up to tell you that you look awful, I've had ' Wow you look so burnt!', and even had 'God, what happened?' thrown at me before. They say it to your face like you deserve it, it hits your self-esteem, and they don't give a shit about how you feel.

Over Boost Juice- Perth City, Nov 08

I can only count with my fingers the small number of people who didn't once make any degrading comments about my face, and who were always understanding about my 'face problem'. I even had a friend who brought me samples from her beauty shop to help me alleviate my skin problem. God bless her kind & thoughtful soul, and the rest of the people who didn't make me feel ugly inside and out. Thank you :)

Most people don't know what people with acne go through, thats probably because you take one glance at them and go eeeuuyuckk! You should thank your lucky stars really, that you belong to the majority of the world population that has generally good skin. I'm in the bottom 10% of the world's population with 'troubled skin'.

I think having a good complexion is one of the things that people take for granted, I admit, I was one of them. And you never quite appreciate looking at your own reflection in the mirror until something like acne hits you. Thats when your own reflection becomes unbearable, and stepping outside the house becomes something you try to avoid...because you just feel....ugly.

zit-free in June 2009

I'm no longer 100% dependant on the Accutane tablets, and I do try to take good care of my skin. But I still freak out at the slightest sight of a zit.
Acne has its nightmares on you, and thats the UGLY truth.

Oct 09
I know this photo's been used one too many times,
but sorry Shers, I look good in it! wakaka!

Beauty is only skin deep, but it's a valuable asset if you're poor or haven't any sense.
-@p-

Frosty

strip # 6 of Dating @pril for Dummies

On a Friday afternoon, my friend confided in me that nobody in this world could possibly love her, the real her.

The same wave of skepticism now clouds the both of us. I too hope that I can find somebody who can love me for being me. But then again, the real question is...who would love me for who I truly am?

As of recently, my perceptions about love & relationships have begun to change, for reasons I can't quite identify why either.

Perhaps I got the equation wrong all this while.
-@p-

Man Overboard

Yakkety Yak

My friend who's a fan of dancing the rumba explained to me that Ballroom Rumba,
is in fact a 'vertical expression of a horizontal desire'

@.@ That took me a while to digest. But it intrigues me anyhow.
In watching I mean.

cha-cha-cha! ;)
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I almost fell into this manhole in front of my training centre as I was alighting the bus from Lcct, after getting back from Langkawi the other day.

It was blardy dark, and 3x2 feet wide, hell...I'd hate to imagine what I would have broke if I really had fallen in.


Thank goodness my footsteps were big enough, I missed landing into the gutter only marginally.

Needless to say, thank goodness I walk like a man =p

And needless to say, this blog has made me say things that I wouldn't ordinarily have the chance to admit.

Its funny, its true,
except when it happens to you
-@p-

Oh Beep Pea!

Am is now suffering from post-Langkawi sickness.

Gawd I miss smelling like the sea, being flung mad by the waves and getting sand in my hair.... and often in other not so comfortable areas.

I have no qualms about being thrown off a banana boat smack into 200ft deep waters.

Apart from the fact that I miss staying in a master bedroom at a 5-star resort and not having to pick up after myself.


And the people there take good photos too.

I went to Langkawi and got a star shot of myself lookin' like Keanu Reeves.

So instead of The Matrix, I can star in.....

Legends of the Mahsuri- Reloaded

no?
(everybody say wtf in unison!)

what's the most important meal?
the next meal
-@p-

The Poop

Yakkety Yak

Why do parents lament over how fast their children grow up? I think if their children didn't learn how to grow up any sooner, they'd kill their parents faster.

No one likes change but babies in diapers
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I never quite thought that shopping for baby gifts could be so hard.

I think I stood in front of the pillar adorned with baby socks for a good 10 minutes.

And then there's baby shoes....and more shoez =.=

Whats even harder is trying to buy something of a 'neutral' warna & design. Which crosses out anything blue, or pink., and I can't get anything 'too cute' or with the word 'pwetty' on it.
I wasn't about going to walk into my boss's office and ask her 'eh boss, yang dalam tu, boy or girl?'

I wouldn't want her future baby boy (if it is one) to be wearing pink socks.
Being mistook for the opposite gender has never been fun (speaking from experience here)

Sorry, not 'it', but the baby. LoL

Besides, with the baby's gender, you can never be too sure till the baby pops out. (God is after all great)
Heck they all predicted that I would be a boy,
but Hey look what else popped out!! (or what else was missing, perhaps left in the womb maybe? lol)

After much deliberation, this is what I eventually settled for.

Wrapping it was not much fun either.

By the looks of it, something obviously went wrong.
(hmmm, that could have been just what my parents said when they had me. lol)

Couldn't quite think of what to write on the card though. Always the case, I eventually came up with a good 5 things to NEVER write on baby gift cards, to your boss.

Like 'don't pop in the office, its all carpet here!'

Or something like 'Glad to have someone who's been living inside you for 9months finally come out, and now he/she's gonna be living ON you, good luck with that'

Or 'Congratulations on getting knocked-up, Great job anyhow!'
A compliment that extends from the very bottom of my heart, I believe.
My boss is brilliant that I think saying she's brilliant would be an understatement. And she married and equally brilliant man who's nothing less of an Einstein. And both their brains would make up one Dell processor. Imagine their kid, I'm pretty sure the baby would probably figure out how to convert cheese into gold or figure out how to travel to Mars and maybe even cure acne in 24hours.
Its in the genes.

I always believe that stupid people shouldn't breed, but those 2 superbrains, heck go forth & multiply!

Or I could get all rhetoric and go 'People who say they sleep like a baby don't normally have one'

But no i don't think a woman in her 7 month of pregnancy would appreciate my sense of humour.

And I shall not point out that Diaper spelt backwards is REPAID. Think about it.
I never liked children anyway.

So I settled for a short poem.

10 tiny little little fingers that always want to play,
That never stop explaining the wonder of today,
10 tiny little fingers that from the very start,
WIll reach out for tomorrow yet always hold your heart

A conscience is like a baby, it has to go to sleep before you can.
woops, 'it' again.
-@p-

Cheap Thrills

Yakkety Yak

Gone were the days where I'd revel in the newspapers thoroughly whilst enjoying my morning brew. The papers nowadays no longer excite me, as they continuously churn out political propaganda. You wonder what substantiates as real news, and what is fictitious garbage.

When reading about Gary Chaw kicking Justin Lo in the groin becomes more exciting than the nation's news, you wonder, what has the political state of our country become?

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This is the hand that shook hands with PM Najib yesterday afternoon at Bank Negara's open house.

A first for me, and meeting Bank Negara's Governor too! XD


Small little ku-chi-rat staff like me, hardly get to see her. In person, I've only seen her twice, this time, I actually got within 10 feet near her
(syiok bo?)

Anyhow, she's a stunning woman who possess an extremely dignified look, despite this photo not giving her much justification.

photo inset - (look closely) Governor Zeti, PM Najib

If there ever was an ideal 'look' for a Central Bank Governor, I'd say no one has a better profile than Tan Sri Dr. Zeti herself.

that's my Governor yo!

Tan Sri Dato’ Dr. Zeti Akhtar Aziz was appointed Governor of Bank Negara Malaysia in 2000. At the height of the Asian financial crises, Dr.Zeti managed the implementation of selective exchange controls to restore stability and promote economic recovery in Malaysia. Years later, Dr.Zeti's contorversial implementations of capital controls & currency floating during the financial crisis paid off when the country returned into competitiveness faster than any other country in the region.

In other words, you have Dr.Zeti to thank if you were still schooling when the financial crises struck, that your parents still had jobs & could support you and your siblings through college.

Governor I give you 5 points & a star!!! XD

Thank you also Governor, for giving this unemployable person a job.

don't I look like one of those cute korean boys prancing around singing sorry!sorry!shawty!shawty!

Out of the many things that I've gotten used too, or rather come to expect when it comes to any affair that is organised by the Bank, its that its gonna he nothing less than HUGE.

Maklumlah we print money downstairs.
And hey the RM329.9billion (reserves as at 15th Sept) kept in the vault downstairs is plenty to go around! lol

I'm so used to it sometimes it doesn't even impress me anymore!

roast kambing

How nice it would be, if that were a plate of siew yuk instead.

wanna die arh??!!

Or atleast a cocktail bar to add to the festivity. I call tequila shots!!

2 words: So fired.

why do you keep feeling like you're missing something when you have basically everything?
-@p-